What do you want to hear?
That I am so in love with you I can’t breath correctly?
or the thought of your hand anywhere but on the small of my back
makes my skin crawl?
Well, I am not going to say it, because it isn’t true.
It can never be true.
Because you were in love when we met and you never saw me any differently than just the shoulder you cried on.
Love doesn’t just come around when you’re cold and lonely,
it is there in the summer when everything is happy and glorious and nothing in the world is wrong -
and it stays in the winter when you’re six hundred miles away and drinking a latte at a local coffee shop while I am sitting in class doodling hearts and clouds and trees and endlessly dreaming of the ways we fit together.
I went on a date last week and he was sweet and he held the door open for me and told me I was beautiful but
he wasn’t you and at the end of the night there was nothing that could change that.
You’re falling in love with a girl you work with and here I am feeding you things to tell her,
lines that I dream of you whispering to me.
When your lips meet, do you taste constellations? do you feel stars in the back of your throat? because one look from you shoots me to the moon and I am lost. I am lost with you. I am lost without you.
One day you and I will grow old but we will never grow old together.
I am so in love with you that I cannot breathe correctly."